New Year

 Good Afternoon,

-Work-

• Things have changed a little since that last post. Job is still the same (which is good) but i don't think i am as happy as i could be.
• it could be just the Pandemic and the feeling like i'm not going anywhere.
• The Pandemic hit and the Owner has been doing things that i think aren't fair. He took scheduling, payroll, and my authority (i feel) away till things get back to somewhat normal. the mall has been on restricted hours (11-7).
• the owner wants 1 person doing the jobs and i understand about the payroll, but the person that is doing the schedule doesn't work in the stores and i just want to be able to do something other than talking to customers.
• my authority i feel that i don't have any because i don't see my employees and i just work to be the main person in the store during the week.

-Personal-

• Last weekend we Visited Kommandant's Mom.
• she was happy we were there and we didn't spend enough time there (Saturday 1AM - Monday 2PM)
• she wants us to move there and be with Kommandant's Family.
• Personally i don't think that is going to happen. Kommandant and i have our lives here. My Family, Our Friends are all here. i know we could always make more friends there and we would have his family there and we could spend more (than we do now) with them. but i don't want to move away from everything i know.
• i have taken up the Shuttle Tatting again.
• i found a pattern that i really like. I'm turning it into a doily that I'm going to put it on the table where Grilltech sits.

I'm Still Alive!!!!

Let’s see what has changed since the last time that I have posted (since it’s been more than a year!).

I Got a New Job after some Drama from the last one. I am now a Store Manager of a store. I get to do a lot more things and I have more responsibility’s that I get to handle. I have days where I miss what I did but they pass because I am way happier doing what I am doing now.

            Currently I am having issues with trying to get people to do what I would like for them to do. Some of it is employees under me and some of it is people above me. For the last 2 weeks I have had to change the store manual because it was written very fast and things were running together and not making much sense. So, I changed it all and make it more user friendly. Before I changed the manual, I asked every employee if they had an issue with it and if there were changes that they would like to see changed. I had 2 employees say yes and give me examples of things that I could work on so that I could make it better. I had 1 employee not really give me any input on it and that she didn’t really see any issue with it.

            During the last week or so we have had some changes happen. There was 1 employee from my store quit & one employee from Kommandant’s store get fired (I really don’t know the details of that one). With this thing are changing schedule wise and how much Kommandant, the General Manager & I have to work till we find someone to hire for the hours that we are hiring for. The General Manager has asked for me to change my schedule, as of the 18^th I am going to be pulling 3 open to closes and then 1 day where I am working maybe 5 to 6 hours. This is because they felt that having staff come in for an hour and a half was unreasonable and that they couldn’t get anyone who wanted to work these shifts because it was such a waste of time before I changed my schedule I made sure that everyone was okay with it. all the staff that agreed to it has either quit or gotten fired. Now we have new staff and it is just easier for me the change my schedule and have the new staff be happy. Another thing that is going to be changing on the 18^th is that my favorite employee that I have shown how to do things and that has been working hard is going to Kommandant’s store and I get to keep one employee (everyone loves but me) that I wasn’t too impressed with. I have asked the General Manager if we could get more training hours because they are going to be needed for when I am not here, the employee is going to be on their own and they are going to need to receive freight and or do things that they really don’t know how to do or not really wanting to learn at the time.

            I just have to except that I get to keep someone that I am not impressed with and I am definitely not happy that I am losing my best employee, but the best employee is going to be used for different things. I just need to except this fate and try to get this employee to the steps of where I want her to be.

            Today I am a little upset that I have to receive a bunch of things that one store has had for 5 to 6 years and they couldn’t sell and now I get to try to sell things that are really old, and they look like it. (I’m going to see if I could get them discounted so that customer want to get them. I also asked for a change request and I didn’t get it because the General Manager is just too busy doing her stuff that she doesn’t have time to take care of her other stores. About 3:45 I was told that she would try to do it, but it is 7:00 and it hasn’t happened, I wasn’t told that ‘oops I didn’t have time’ or ‘Hey I ended up not having time to do the change request and I will get to it tomorrow.’ Things need to change for this or it’s just going to get old and I am going to stop requesting help for the store and doing things my way (but then I am going to have to answer to the ‘well why were things done this way and not this other way?’ and I am going to say is ‘ I can’t get anyone out here to help out and I needed to put X in place and since no one is willing to answer me I did it that way’.)

            I’m going to leave it at this and have a good day away from work.

One mass

Life

On march 16th the techs and I were suppose to go to Seattle and see the red hot chili peppers, that's not what happened. I went into surgery to remove a cyst that was attached to my left ovary.

The surgery went well, there wasn't any complications. The cyst was 6 liters (gallon and a half) of liquid, and it was 30cm (a foot) big.

About 5 days later I went to the doctor to get my staples out. I had 19 all together (The nurse left 1 in. She didn't see it when she was removing the others). About 2 weeks went by and I was healing along and then my wound was leaking some red and yellow liquid (it didn't smell). I was freaking out because I wasn't sure if that was normal or not. Kommandant told me I had to call the doctor and find out if I needed to go to the emergency room. They told me to place a pad on it and then come in on Monday.

Went in on Monday and got to talk to the doctor. She looked at it and the wound was healing from the outside in. So the liquid was normal. The wound had healed at the very top and the middle. The only parts that didn't was the upper middle part and the very bottom (it was like a drain). Kommandant went with me and she poked around inside of my wound to open it up and then packed it up with this packing strips. Kommandant got to pack my wound 2 times a day (I am so lucky to have someone to do that to me.).

They told me to get up and moving so that I can build my stamina up. So about two times a day either Knittech or Kommandant would walk me around the block. We started off with the small block which took so much out of me each time we would walk it. 

About week 4 Kommandant didn't have to pack the wound any more. We did have to put a pad over it because I was still having a little leakage. Week 5 came and went and we stopped putting a pad down so that it could have all the air it wanted. Week 6 came and that's when I was sleeping and I scratched my scar in the middle and opened it up. I'm waiting for that to heal and I'm doing everything in my power from not scratching it.

We had the last doctors appointment on week 6 and she said that everything looks great and that it is 100% healed. I still have scabs on it and I have the middle part to heal. But I'm happy that it is done and over with.

oh my

Kommandant and I want to have a child. Since nothing has been happening I thought that I should get go to the doctor. I found a new doctor and told him what I wanted to do. He said okay and sent me to go to an ultrasound of my ovaries. The tech sent a lot of time looking at my right ovary. Since it was a tech doing the test they didn't say a thing to me and I had to make an appointment with my doctor to find anything out.

I went to the doctor and he said that he wanted me to do a CT. He said that there was a mass and he wanted to get a better idea of what it was. Maybe it was a hormone secreting tumor or it could be apart of the PCOS that they are 99.999% sure that I have. So I wait and wait and call the doctors office to see if I could schedule an appointment myself because they were taking so long; they told me I had to wait because they had to get an authorization from the insurance. (They told me when they called that they didn't need one) so I get in to do it and the gal that was the tech was really nice. As soon as I go to get dressed she told me to wait because they were having computer problems and I might have to do the test again. But they figured it out.

The results came in and the doctor sent me an email because I didn't want to waste my time and get an appointment. The email said that there was indeed a mass near my left ovary and he was going to refer me to a gynecologist to help me with my issue of a mass.

So the waiting game began again. I had to wait for the new doctors office to call me and set an appointment up. They called the next day or something like that. They had someone cancel their appointment and I got the appointment. I went and talked with the doctor and they did an examination and I have to have surgery to get the 30cm mass removed (the mass is the size of my belly.). They want to do it quickly so that it is out of me. They did a blood tests and made sure that it isn't cancerous. (It's not)

The surgery is going to be on the 16th of March. (I'm not happy because Knittech and I were suppose to spend a week in Seattle going to a concert and enjoying out time). Knittech is going to take me to the hospital and help me recover from this.

I told Mr. Boss Man and he wasn't happy because he relays on me a lot because I'm pretty much the only one that bends over backwards to help. I told my staff that I'm not going to be here for 4 weeks and I needed them to help Mr. Boss Man out. I'm afraid that they aren't going to help.

After telling Mr. Boss Man the news I went home and I drank a whole bottle of wine myself.  It was not a smart idea but that's what I wanted to do.

How did we get here?

One of my resolutions this year is to get checked out by the doctor and make sure everything in my reproductive system is fine. I wanted to confirm that I have PCOS. The last doctor I went to said that she was 99.999% sure that I had it and that I didn't need any tests to confirm it. All I had to do was loose weight and take metformin and I needed to loose weight.

My goal in life is to have a child by the time I'm 30. So I went to a different doctor last month and told him my goal. The first thing he did was he wanted to 100% confirm that it is PCOS. So I had a blood test to check my hormone levels. I was expecting a phone call with results, a letter came in the mail with the results. (I really liked that). The next step is getting an ultrasound done on my ovaries to see if there are masses on or in them. (The doctor said that I would get a phone call to set the appointment up and nothing happened for a week and I called them and set up the appointment myself. At least it got done.)

One of the things that I didn't like about the doctor was that he kept saying that I am obese. He could have said overweight. I'm not going to nitpick that issue with the doctor.

Sunday, October 2

I've been feeling a little stressed out since Mr. boss man told me he really wants to quit. Nothing I can do or say will make him want to stay. He's unhappy with his job which I can understand it stressful when you're the boss and you have to answer to higher ups, your employees, your assistant and just about everyone else. He says that he may want to stay to help out with the engraving for the holiday season and then he might go. He might even go before the holiday season which is really stressing me out because I don't want to be the boss when it comes to the holiday season. We still have to hire three engravers which we're trying to get one of the master engraver back that we normally get it. And I'm not even sure if he's going to come back. Then I have to hire a sales person for the season. Then I have to hire a permanent employee that only gets eight hours a week. And it's not great hours either it's normally nighttime four hours per shift.

When I got into work the first thing I did was clean my engraver. I figured out how to tighten the vise block. This morning started out with customers coming in and wanting to get their stuff engraved. There was a lot of handholding because it was customers were like: "how would you do this or how would you do that". I did make my sales goal today and it was in before 1pm.

I'm trying to get the redisplay started and it's just not happening. There's just way too many people coming in when I start trying to work and they want to ask questions, they want to see things, they want all of my attention. Whenever I start something I have to immediately stop because somebody come in I get a phone call that they want to ask a hundred questions.

So that's how my days going so far. It's about 3 o'clock so I think I'm gonna try and get my redisplay started and see how far I get.

Christmas!!

Kommandant and I have been working a lot because of the holiday season. Kommandant has been working his normal schedule with Saturday's playing the Star Trek game. 

Me on the other hand have been working long hours. I think last week I worked 54 hours. This week I think I'm close to that again. We just didn't hire enough people this year. No one wanted to work in the mall. We hired 2 people out of the 4 to 5 people we needed to have. So I'm a little tired of working. Over the 2 weeks I've had 2 days off that weren't close to each other.

Today starts a new week and I have 3 days off in a row. So I'll be able to rest and not have to work with people at all. I'm not looking forward to working New Year's Day because we are going to the judge's house and playing games. But the store is just going to be open for 8.5 hours for 2 days, there is no point having 2 people come in for little bit of time.

For Christmas kommandant got a PlayStation 4. Knittech and I have been playing Diablo 3 on it. Kommandant just got fall out 4. Don't know when he is going to have time to play it, since knittech and I have been playing on it more then him. Knittech went and got 2 more controllers for the playstation so they can play with us.

Kommandant got me an iPhone 6s Plus phone. I LOVE it. I haven't had the chance to put it down when I'm not working. It has a GREAT battery life and I have been using the crap out of it. The speaker is nice but I just got head phones and I have been using them.